FAILING

Let’s talk about failure. 

FAILURE.

The word kind of makes my heart beat faster, my palms clammy, and my head feel a little fuzzy. It’s not something I enjoy talking about, let alone feeling.

I hate failing. I mean it’s not like I know anyone who actually enjoys failing, but it’s the worst feeling in the world. And the weird thing is that everyone’s definition of failure is a little different. 

I just failed a test. Like failed failed. The second I got out of my class I ran to the nearest empty place on campus, called my mom, and cried. I didn’t even know I needed to cry but the second I told my mom I failed I just lost it. 

photo scan taken by my amazing amazing amazing mom 

And you know what she said? She said life goes on. She told me that there are ups and downs and everything in between. She said that currently, I’m having a down but it’s not the end of the world. Life. Goes. On. 

I might have to drop the class but I’m not a failure. One test, one class, one semester doesn’t define who I am as a person. I still have so many gains in front of me — maybe failures too, but those only make the good things seem even better.  

So if you’re ever feeling down or like you’re a failure, know that you’re not. It might seem terrible and irreversible in the moment, but even a day later life can seem so much better. You are amazing, and your grades don’t and shouldn’t determine your self worth.

Thanks for reading! 
xox
chloe